Only Another Day Older.

It was my birthday yesterday. I normally hate my birthday and I have ever since I was a kid but I was looking forward to this years birthday as I had Phoenix and she is important to me and always makes me happy so seeing her made my birthday awesome and fun.

I had to work on my birthday, I was thinking it would be bad and horrible and I really didn't feel like working on my birthday, but turns out it was okay and kind of fun, I was on work with Dean and Darren, two of the coolest people at reading cinemas in my opinion. We had kebabs for lunch, they tasted good. Worked from 9 till 4.20, the whole day they gave me crap and said my girlfriend was imaginary but it was kind of funny. Finished worked got changed and some guy miss ordered and wanted a frozen coke but then didn't want it, so I got to drink it for free. :D

After work Phoenix arrived and we ordered tickets to see Back Up Plan and drinks and popcorn. I was so happy to see Phoenix and felt like it was the best birthday ever, which I guess it was. We watched the movie and occasionally id throw popcorn at her for fun. Anyways we watched the movie, had her in my arms and held her hand <3, and after watching it we brought a frozen coke to drink, then walked out and saw Minnie and Her mum ( Amy's sister and mother for those who don't know.. ) and I talked to them for a bit, called mum phoenix said she was cold put my jumper around her and heard and saw Minnie and her friend just point and said "aww isn't that cute, look there so cute together awww" which made my day even better, and made me feel glad and special that I got to have a girl like Phoenix and that people think we are cute together.


Mum picked us up we went home to drop Dylan off then went straight to the twins to pick them up then to bowling. We arrived Hayley was waiting for us and Julian, so we got in there paid and then went to do laser tag. It was fun but I really sucked :D . Then bowled which I suck at as well, I think I lost? I don't remember. After doing them we went arcading for a bit then got bored so brought chips ate them, then went for a walk. Phoenix and Hayley ditched us and went the other way, which made me feel kinda bad/sad/depressed because I just wanted to spend all night with her but she went the other way with Hayley. I said to myself "They will want to to go home as soon as we get to them" Which they did, which made me feel terrible because I just wanted to be with Phoenix but she wanted to go, but I guess that's selfish of me. They decided to stay, then everyone was bored or depressed or something so we all went back inside and arcaded for a bit more then all back out the front and played truth or dare for a bit which failed and we ended up walking for a bit and then called mum to take Phoenix and Hayley home and myself, really wish I didn't, I wanted to spend more time with her. Got to Phoenix's house walked her and haylz to the front door said goodbye, then went back to the car feeling sad because I had to leave and she wouldn't be with me anymore, Selfish yet again. Got home laid in bed for a bit, then came on msn and talked to Aden and Tom, discussed stuff with them and Aden showed me some pictures of some cool weapons and what not.


After that I went to bed and thought to myself that this is the only birthday I actually kind of enjoyed apart from having to leave Phoenix, really wish I didn't have too. This birthday I did stuff, all my other birthdays I sat in my room being yelled at by friends and family.

Thanks guys and girls for making my birthday good for once.




Am i too possessive/clingy? wanting to be with Phoenix all the time and wanting to hold her and what not? I want tell her how I feel and what I want but I cant do that because what if she doesn't want that and then everything falls apart? Id rather just make her happy and not care about my wants or anything. I'm just scared ill lose her if I do actually do something wrong or if she doesn't like or want it or what not. Just want to make her happy but I cant think of anyways to do so and as I said I'm scared of trying to do anything in case i lose her.




Yours Faithfully,
Xendal.