Do not lie. Its no good for you..

Kid, you had another chance.

You should have told her then and there.

You didnt have to hide the truth.

Yet you let slip a lie.

You know you failed your promise so soon.

You say just one more try.

If you fail this time

You are surely to slip a loose.

You will disappear from her life.



You will not lie,
You will not hide,
You have to change,
Or it is good bye.

Learn this Josh,
You have to learn the truth.
If you do not,
Then its good bye to you.

Just a Contribute

Why do you make me smile so easily?

Its not fair in the slightest.

You just look at me and I instantly smile and have thoughts and feelings stream though my body.

You can cheer me up and make my day just by saying Hello.

You are there for me when ever I need you.

You Complement me.

You and I share things in common.

You respect me.

I respect you.

I love that I'm able to joke around with you.

I love the way you look at me.

I love the way we muck around and play games.

I love hearing you tell me stuff that makes you blush or makes your day.

I love everything about you.

I love you


Im glad your in My Life.

Your my Bestest Friend.

Joshyy

Just A Lost Boy...

I know who I am, But who is that exactly?

This question has been with me for most of my life,

Its mainly become a part of me over the last few years.

To be honest I dont know who I am,

I dont know why im here,

I dont exactly have a purpose,

Now do I?

Im just a Lost Boy,

A Boy who is too afraid to face the truth,

A boy who runs away every time.

Its not like I'm that great of a person.

So, why am I here?

Who am I?

Why did you do it?

Well Xendal, I hope your happy.

Letting emotions and feelings take control of your life,

Now you remember dont you?

Now you remember why not to use emotions and not to care?

Your weak.

Emotions are your downfall.

How do you even know if these feelings you hold are even true?

You dont, do you?

You just try to believe that this is all fate and its meant to be.

Well you can clearly see thats not true.

Emotions are a weakness.

Weakling, why do you even exist?

I hate you so badly.

Why did you do this?

Because you thought it was for the best?

You fool why not just be like we used to?

If i could, I would destroy you.

Gone out of my life so quick.



Xendal, you really are a fool.

What you did tonight can not be undone,

You lost your chance.

I hope your happy.

Chains Of Memorys...

Is it possible to be feeling like this?

I have feelings which are being lost every moment. I didnt think this is possible but its happening, I can feel it and its slightly driving me insane but for some reason I'm kind of glad at the same time..

All good things come to an end, is what I was told and something I read today.

Should I act befor its all lost or just let it fall apart?

Im deeply confused but maybe I should let it drop, things would be easyer for some if I let go and forgot.

These feeling changed me and made me a better person and have helped me alot, I cant say its the feelings but more Her that has been there for me and made me happy. But the feelings being lost used to trigger happy memorys of which the chains are slowly being broken apart and I'm now losing reason to believe thats how I feel still.

Its concerning to think It might disappear completely as its an important feeling and I dont want to to go but maybe its for the best right?

Really what is it I should do?

They have been here for quite a while and now they are just leaving me and Im clinging onto the feelings just to have something in life I enjoyed and something that really did change me.

Why am I holding on? I really dont know anymore.
Please give me a reason to remember or just let it fall.



So once again I am falling ever so slowly.



Please will an angel catch me before its too late.

Joshyy

Rambling >.>

You know whats really annoying, Hic Ups.

They are so damn annoying, I currently have them and have had them for the last 30mins, they go away for like a min and then bang they are back and you just want to scream and be like omg don't make me come in there!!!

I'm currently playing with my knife, spinning it around tossing it in the air and just yeah playing with it. 'Tis a shape little knife i missed it and it fell and cut down the side of my box.

My thoughts at the moment are everywhere I cant focus on anything at this very moment. These hic ups are mega annoying but I'm getting used of it and I've been counting how far apart are each hic and its an average of 16.

My internet is really pissing me off tonight, its running ever so slow and its rather annoying. Ever since mum moved the internet its been running slowly and it is really getting to me.

Today was a rather awesome day was just a mega awesome day, had a poke'name battle off I lost horrible which makes me feel lame >.> But it was just mega awesome kicked ass in guitar hero movies and chyeah. Wish I could do it again, twas fun. Sleeping in tomorrow, going to try for 12 or maybe 1 since I have nothing to do at this house.

This blog did actually have a purpose but I've just been posting what ever has come into my mind so enjoy my rambling or don't its up to you, I'll post a proper blogy thing again sometime when I'm not so lost in thought and feelings.

Choices...

Ever scared of a choice you have to take?

You know whats best and you want to take it but you can't?

You know you have to choose soon other wise everything will be a wreck?

You know if you choose the wrong one you will regret it?

You know if you choose the correct one you will regret it as well?

What happens if you pick the wrong choice, its not as if you can go back.
No, it would be far to late to go back.

You see, I have this choice I have to make, I can't choose to do what would be best because I don't want that to happen.

If it does happen I will really hate myself.
But if I don't I'm just going to be miserable and so are others because of me.

I.. don't care what other think of my choice, I know which one they all want me to pick.

But you see, it's not that easy.

I want to pick the right choice, and in the long run it would be better, no more causing problems and such.

But It's just not what I want.

I'm really confused and flipping a coin wont work here.

Why do choices have to be so complicated.



Joshyy