Her.

Ever want to spend your time with someone because they make you feel happy and complete?

And you don't really care what other people say about it.

You just want to be with her.

And you don't care if she mad at you or doesn't want to be with you.

You just want to spend time with her and hope that shes not busy.

And you don't notice how quickly time goes when your beside her.



Just a few things that came to mind and where stopping me from sleeping.

These are my thoughts,
I hope you can all relate.

I miss her.




Joshyy

My Day, Last Day Of Term 3.

Today, Today was incentive day for me. I got up at 3am and was ready by 4 to be picked up by Neisha at 4.10. We got to school and waited for the bus, it was late. We got on and went to Harvey Bay for whale watching, 4 hours on a boat.

Awesome yeah? Damn right it was, I loved it.

I re-met Tegan that day. Yes I've met her before but this time I re-met her as I found out who she was and actually kinda got to know her. Shes fair cool, fair cool? That's not very correct. Shes totally awesome!.

On the boat we watched whales cuz.. well... that's what you do when you go Whale Watching. I hung with Lauren for the first hour or two then I hung around Tyler and Jake and As previously said, Tegan.

Jake seemed to only be able to relate things to sex while on the boat.

Heres an example of something that happened:

Someone says: Click view movies, Jake replys: Did somebody just say lick your boobies?

Yes as we can see that is closely sounding but he made it sexual with out realizing. Good on you Jake.

Anyhows I got lots of photos and we all got wet ;) wait nooooo not that type of wet shesh. Wet from water what else!! ... Just.. Never mind...


Okay so we then went to a water park. Looked lame, got into it and it was fun, dragging Lauren and Tegan out to get wet by the water from a huge bucket was fun. Tiggy was pretty good till I slipped on the water. Hehe :P .

Back on bus got back to school Neisha's mum took me home, was a fun trip me and Neisha talked a fair bit in the car to her mum and each other about our day.


The day was awesome, mainly wrote this just to put out thoughts on the day as I reviewed it.

Guess what? Getting up at 3am was totally worth it.

Tegan, not that you will read this but... Thanks for the fun and it was really nice to get to know you betterish. Guess I'll just try hang around you a bit more to learn more about you. Thanks for keeping me company and keeping me entertained. Wish to learn more about you and hang with you more often, your totally super special awesome. And Guess what! I so won that race ;) . Told you I was faster =D

Jake, You wont read this either but ehh.. Thanks for making us all laugh at your stupidity and very funny sexual jokes.

Lauren, you wont read this either, wow no surprise... Thanks for keeping my company and getting me some good whale photos, and twas funny when you got your tea spilt all over you from that chick haha ;)

Tyler, Know you out of them all will likely read this.. I just uploaded That 1 guy to my Ipod since I remembered from listening to it on the bus with you, and I thank you for laughing with me or at me when I slipped on water when we went and crashed down, Funny stuff >:P . And the water park, haha twasnt for you I would have been like blahh no fun to serious not in a josh fun mood. >:D


Yours Faithfully,
Xendal.

Super Nerd.

Today, I realized how nerdy I am. But also how cool I am.

Two kids were talking to one of my friends and looked like he didn't like it we all went over and one of the guys kept flicking ice ate us so i kicked the ice thingy out of his hands really quickly. Was that or punch the bitch in the face, I found my choice funner and it looked cool and tag teamed when Aden stood on it when it hit the ground. They walked away after a bit and the other guy throw his at me and it hit me in the head I laughed and said allows "Oh no! A critical hit!" only after I said it I realized how nerdy it was.

I now realize I am a Super Nerd, not just a normal one but I'm A.. Super Nerd!. Kinda like Super Saiyan with out all the cool powers. Infact! nothing like a Super Sayian AT ALL, apart from the super part. But even with out the super part I'll still rank over 9000 like Goku.

Sure my realizing was a slow start, but now I'll be making moves like Yoshi in a Go-Kart.

Guess you really know your a nerd when you sit there watching 3 hours of a movie from a game you play and you say stuff like crit or dodge or what not in life.

Is being a Super Nerd bad? I think I'm just like I used to be, the cool guy that most people loved even though he was a smart ass little nerdy bitch.


Share your thoughts with me.

Ever considered becoming a Super Nerd? Or do you think being a regular nerd is the way to go? Or hey, maybe your one of those people who think nerds are gay? Let me know.



Yours Nerdy,
Holy Pally, Xendal.

As it grows darker.

I see them, they are happy. A few kids, at school, sitting around talking and making jokes. I see me as a kid. I'm sitting in a tree watching myself, he looks up and is smiling. I look into his eyes I don't see truth what I see is a lie. The world is starting to grow darker thunder is heard the kids get up and run to their mothers which should not be there but yet it grows darker. Clouds have taken over the sky, lightning and thunder are dancing around. The parents grin, there eyes widen. They start to change, finger nails grow longer, their arms turn into a rough purple red colour scale likish, they grow horns and wings, their faces extend and become narrow and they turn into demons. There is fire, the buildings are burning I see the kids starting to scream the world is in chaos they are screaming for help. I just sit there watching kids be slaughted by demons coming out of no-where I see myself get stabbed. I look into my eyes again, I recognize the pain and the sadness he has in his eyes now. Now I see how the world feels, happiness has gone. Nothing but darkness and death surrounding us all. We live to die I whisper to myself as I watch from the tree. He falls to the ground, lays there bleeding. Looks up at me one last time holds out his hand and says with his last breath. Help me, and dies. I sat and watched as he said that I jump out of the tree and walk away into the darkness smiling as I fade away.

Living the life? Only could wish.

I like to think I'm living the life.

Truth be told...

I'm not.


My life isn't what most would call great.

Yes I realize there are those poor little people who are staving to death and they must have so much worse lives then me **sarcasm**. Good for them, we all have problems in life, I just wished to release my thoughts, read it if you wish.



I have a girlfriend as we all know. I haven't seen her in the last month. Its like she doesn't really care if she sees me or not, it doesn't seem to bother her in the slightest. She likes to boss me around, or so it seems. Tells me what I can do and what I can't do. I put up with shit from my friends about her and it gets really annoying with all the jokes and stuff they say about her. Despite all that is wrong with it all, I still seem to love her. One of my friends told me to dump her because it wont be any different to what it is now, not seeing her and barely talking to her. Know whats funny? That friend is friends with phoenix also. I thought about this and its true. Would I be able to do it though? No. I don't think I could do it. I don't want to lose her. She means everything to me, basically the only reason I've decided to start trying in life.

Things with her aren't in my mind going so well. If only she knew how much it hurts me for her to be mad at me. If only she knew how much I love her and miss her. Yet it only seems to be about her and not me. Guess my opinions and feelings/thoughts don't count then.



My family..

Hate them. I don't fit in. I don't feel anything for them. They are there to provide for me, nothing more. I don't see any reason for me to have feels for them, they mean nothing to me. Never have I been treated as an equal in this family. Its always about someone else, greedy? Yes I spose it is. Caring meter? Zero. I rather hate dad, he has never been or done anything for me. All he has ever done is lied to me.



Friends..

Would I really call half my friends proper friends? Half of them I don't really care for also. Some are just people I talk to so I'm not alone or anything. Some are jerks and are mean when ever they can be and I get the urge to just punch them in the face. One of my friends today for example, they always take my phone and Ipod and when I ask for it back I don't get it. But oh no! when I take her phone they hit me and punch me and just went blah at me. I didn't take it for keeps like they do I just took it to actually have a look at her phone, wasn't even going to go through it but I still got punched several times, its daily this person hits me and it pisses me off and today I really hated them for it. Only a few of my friends or people I hang out with ( our full group, year 9's included and the rest of the year 10's and such ) I can consider real friends, sure some are ass holes at times but at least they keep me from thinking negative and make me have a good time ( sometimes ).



I have a lot more to stay but I feel as if what was on my chest of lifted temporarily.

I think negative 93.2% of the time.


Yours Faithfully,
Xendal.

Out rank me? You wish.

Class, rank, fame, wealth, money...

None of that is important to me. It doesn't matter what you have or how high you rank, if you want to think your too good for us all then that's great tell someone who cares, go fuck yourself bro.

You get people who think they out class you because they're rich or they play sports and are buff and have apparently cool hair cuts.

Here's an example, I think we all know about these apparently "cool" and "popular" kids at school who think their top shit cuz of there hair and cuz they play sports.. When really most people think they're dickheads.

Yepp, now its out there. We all know its true they just wish to think they out rank us.


I rather hate people who think they are better then me because they apparently are cooler or anything. How about yous?



Yours Faithfully,
Xendal.

P.S
This blog did originally have a purpose but I forgot because I started talking on msn :D