While playing Pool

This kid made my day. Not today but the other day on my holiday.

Jason and I were playing pool. He kept asking if he could play, we told him no its time for the big boys to play pool. So he went and asked him mum and told on us for not sharing. His mother told him the same as we did.

He comes back to us no long after and asks again, his mother over hears and repeats what she said.

Kid storms off down the hall screaming, "YOU KNOW WHAT! I DON'T LIKE YOU ANYMORE" Slams his bedroom door. 5 seconds later, opens his door comes out and screams, "I REALLY HATE YOU." And the door slammed yet again.

I then laughed. Jason and I kept joking about it all during our games of pool when we would do a shot that blocked the others.

Cant sleep

Cant sleep. Cant sleep. Cant sleep. Cant sleep. Cant sleep.

I've been laying here for the past hour tired as hell with nothing on mind but I just cant fall asleep. Its rather quite annoying. I have been tired all day but unable to sleep all day.

Last night I got like maybe an hour to two of sleep. Kept waking every few mins. Drove me insane.

Why cant I sleep... I would rather my old dreams come back then not be able to fall asleep. And Im to tired to just get up and play video games or even to move to my stereo to put on music. I have no energy but still cant sleep.

Arg...

Go away!

Rain Rain Go Away Come Again Another Day.

Turn it off.

Turn it off, Just like a light switch. Just go click.

Sounds perfect. It works, Cheered me right up.

Just turn off the feelings that make you feel bad.
Works, trust me.

=)

I feel miserable at best...

I feel miserable at best.

Right now, I just want to run away from everything. I seem to cause problems, and I did something really stupid the other day. Now I feel like the biggest dick.

So what if I was angry. It wasn't called for.

There is this one girl, I want to make happy and look after. I want her trust and I want to show her I can be a good person.
But what I did obviously doesn't help. I just hope it all passes over.

I guess I'm no better then that other guy. Fuck.

Note this won't happen to you. None of it will happen to you.

Promise.

Seeing bands live

Mayday Parade, I want to see you live.

This band I have loved for years. They have played live a few times I know of and none of them I have seen live. I just really like the band. I would also love to see Metallica live or System of a Down.

In my life, I want to see atleast one of these live.

What bands would you followers like to see live?
List a few.

When Im sad...

Well, when I'm feeling sad I sing about all the things in the world that make me happy.

ARRRRRRRRHH

Left my phone charger at the twins.

Phone just died.

I feel so alone.

:(

Update

These holidays have been pretty fun so far.

Today I have to clean my room and move it to the other side. Which means I have to clean every single thing and make room all around the house to move all the stuff that needs moving like the TV's and Stereos and such. Its not that hot of a day so its not to bad. And I have music. Fun.

Well, Christmas is coming up. Shall be fun I think. New guitar. Woo. Excited haha.

...

What Is The Color Of Night?

Life is great.

So, Life is good. I'm enjoying it and everything is going well.

I decided to do something good for myself and block and delete Phoenix. Feels good man, Feels good. Now I can get on with life and not have to listen to what ever she says. She threatens to do what ever she can to break me and Amelia up. My opinion, that's kinda bitchy of her and she needs to grow up and get over it.

I'm With Amelia which is great. Shes quite the girl. And this its self, just thinking of it, brings a smile to my face. Obviously you lot know I'm dating her already but yes, saying stuff as it comes to mind.

I've made her a gift, I do ever so hope she likes it. If anyone wants pictures I will send you them tomorrow night. Actually no, you can all wait till Amelia has it herself. Maybe she will show you all if she likes it enough to show you pictures or something.

Anyhow, one more exam tomorrow and then schools over for the year. Woo!

Can't wait.
Holidays won't be that bad. They will be quite fun if stuff happens like I want.

New guitar for Christmas, Cant freakon wait! :D

My thoughts right now.

Im laying in bed thinking back to when I had Amelia over and we fell asleep together. I really wish I could cuddle up to her right now and just fall asleep with her in my arms.

She is such an amazing girl. She looked so gorgeous at prom. I had so much fun being with her all friday.

Amelia <3

Life choices? No idea.

So I'm at the end of year 11 basically.

Should I have any fucking idea what I should do with my life?

Because I don't. I can't find anything I actually want to do.
Nor be good at, Unless there is a job where I can sit around doing absolutely nothing at all, I'm good at that. It's around the only thing I am good at.

I just don't know what to do with myself...

HELL YEAH!

JUST GOT SKYRIM!


That is all.

A Martyr For My Love For You

She was sixteen
And six feet tall
In a crowd of teenagers
Coming out of the zoo.

She stumbled
Started to slip and fall
Teeter tottered on the top
Of patent leather shoes.

I happen to catch her and said
"maybe these ruby shoes are
A little cumbersome for you."

Maybe for you, now.

But not as shaky
As I must've seemed
Talking junk through her
Giggle little teenage dream.

And on the phone I could not compete
My dumb luck
Fake confidence
Was getting weak.

And for a sec
I thought I sounded sweet
But sure enough In a gruff voice I heard myself speak...

I could stay awhile
But sooner or later
I'll break your smile
And I can tell a joke
But one of these days
I'm bound to choke
And we could share a kiss
But I feel like I can't go
Through with this
And I bet we could build a home
But I know the right thing
For me to do
Is to leave you alone

I'm beginning to like you
So you probably won't get
What I'm going to do.

I'm walking away from you
It probably don't make
much sense to you.

But I'm trying to save you
From all of the things that
I'll probably say or do.

I'll probably do, now.

I could stay awhile
But sooner or later
I'll break your smile
And I can tell a joke
But one of these days
I'm bound to choke
And we could share a kiss
But I feel like I can't go
Through with this
And I bet we could build a home
But I know the right thing
For me to do
Is to leave you alone

You'll probably call me a fool
And say I'm doing exactly
What a coward would do.

And I'm beginning to like you
It's a shame
What a lame way to live
But what can i do?

Well I hope you appreciate
What I do...

I'm a martyr for my love for you.

Start posting dreams.

I'm going to try start posting my dreams from day to day.

Sometimes they are quite interesting. Others are just sad and depressing.

But alas, I shall do it.

Or try too.

Last week of school... Basically.

Why Hello there boys and girls.

Its basically my last week of school for this year, HAZZAH!

And well the only classes that are important left are math chem and drama..
So I might just not come to school the other days, that's what I am thinking anyhow.

Gotta get these words for my script stuck into my head. I want to pass this one with an A or atleast a B.

Anyhow, Just thought I would talk about my school life since I am not there.

Title

So today has been quite good and I have been quite addicted to the songs, "Death Letter" and "A Martyr For My love For You" Both are stuck in my head.

It depressed me because sometimes I feel that I should listen to the 2nd song and run away from it all so I don't do or say anything stupid to hurt you.

Though, that's selfish and cowardly to do so. When all I want is for us both to be happy.

You are an amazing girl and I do plan on sticking around if you'll let me.
That's what I decided and since then I've been quite happy.

Anyhow, I know others read my blog and I didn't mean to make that to personal or such, My dream the other night just freaked the heck out of me. All 3 of the ones I recently had. At least last night was a happy dream.

Anyhow, both great songs, listen to them songs.

While your at it, "Ball and biscuit" because its a fantastic song.

Kitchen nearly done.

Building our kitchen. Its nearly all built, once its all built we just have to tile and get an electrician in to put in our oven because we can't legally do it ourselves.

So, Maybe 2 or 3 weeks will will be done or basically done, enough to use the kitchen again I guess. Which I have missed.

Making meals on the table every dinner is kinda annoying, takes up a lot of room and limits the types of meals you can have.

Important Person

You're heavily on my mind once again.

Its different, and its nice.

I'm loving it.
:)

Phone thing...

RAGE!!!!

3rd Phone I've tried to get and they can't get it in stock for another month or two or they just can't get one at all....

It really annoyed me. I'm getting a new one tomorrow regardless of what type of phone it is. I just need a phone that works.

Um Yeah

All Day I have had people just telling me I suck at things or they just are doubting me at everything, It really annoys me. But sometimes I feel they are right and then I doubt myself and feel like shit.

Mmm.

Meaning of Life

So a good friend of mine was questioning the Meaning of Life.

What is it exactly?

For me there is no true meaning, and if there is, its insignificant with what we go though day to day.

So why exactly does there have to be a meaning to life at all?

For everything we do in life it's just pointless and we are to just to live for our own joy. Why make it a bad one? Why not just do everything possible to make you happy. In the end it won't even matter.

Why won't it matter dear Mr Xendal?

Because life is repetitive, everything we do has just been done once before.
We come from nothing, we do stuff we apparently find meaning in, we die and go back to nothing. So over all, what have you lost? Nothing.

So tell me, why bother seeking the meaning to life at all?

To me, life repeats. That's all there is to it.

Life is a time frame filled with nothing but meaningless events.

Said Something But.

I said something, I meant it and hope it, but I don't know if I should have said it.

Though I did say it so, there is no going back from it. Not that what was said was bad.

I am just hoping it does happen and that lady luck will be at my side for the journey.

My last night.

I spent my night with Miss Amelia. Was quite nice.

Her mother picked me up and was kinda weird just driving around with her and talking by ourselves. The music that was playing, every single song was music Dad listens to constantly. Then got Amelia and went to her house.

Was fun, I enjoy seeing her and being with her. It makes me happy and I smile a lot when I am with her. I was told I rarely smile by people, is that true?

Anyhow, we kinda just laid around talking, laughing, me saying stupid things and only realizing after I say it how stupid it sounded. Was fun, and then we had music on and just laid there hugging. Was nice.

At her house, I get fed :D
Yepp! There is food for me to eat, its great. I don't have to starve like I do at my house because there is no Dylan stealing everything to eat. So I ate like triple what I normally do.

Oh! And we watched this movie called Black Swan, it was kinda weird and creepy but also pretty cool. Google it or what ever because I honestly can't be bothered to explain the movie.

Over all, was a fantastic night. Left her house at 2 something. Left my phone at her house though. Which kinda is a problem because I need it, but eh I can go with out it and I am getting a new one Monday anyhow.

I wish...

I wish I could make you smile and never have you being sad or alone or such again.

I wish somehow I could make you so happy everything else in your life is no worry at all.

I shall try to do so, I just want to see you smile.

I wish I had some power to just grant happiness, that would be amazing. I don't like knowing there is something wrong. Though this I can't actually do much about, but if it was possible I would. Though I can be there for you, when times get worse.

I just wish I could make you smile, make you forget everything and just relax.

I'll try my hardest.
I promise.

Today

So for dinner lately we have been cooking everything in the microwave or frypan. Veggies done in the microwave and steak is what we had for dinner. Wasn't that bad. But still, everything cooked in the microwave for the next two months since our family is lazy. Shall be interesting. Or boring due to probably having the same things most nights.

Anyhow, school today was quite lame. Though my first day actually being able to go to canoeing Yay... Wasn't to bad, though the sporty dicky so called cool/popular people were just trying to capsize everyone. Was effing annoying since it was my first day in a canoe. Turns out I wasn't to bad at it.

Christmas is slowly making its way. What does everyone want for Christmas?

I don't get Skyrim till Christmas nor do I get my guitar. D:

Blog written in English.

Oh hey there.

I'm currently sitting in English writing this. But of course when I put it on my blog it will have been written again so I don't know if I should start it like this at all. Oh well.

Anyhow, I'm writing this or wrote this in English because the teacher has decided to make us do a writing task and I thought, what a wonderful time to do a writing for my blog.

Now, down to business. I was talking about zombies today just before we got into class. Its got me curious. What would you all do if a zompocolypes occurred? Would you run and hide? Maybe fight them off, be a hero and challenge the zombies? Would you band together or go alone? What type of weaponry would you carry? Where would you go? Be realistic about this.

I personally would join a group, probably not fight them unless we needed to get some supplies or find a safe area. I would carry a blunt weapon, hockey stick or baseball bat or something. Since both are found around Bundaberg and I doubt this town has many guns with a fair bit of ammunition. Its always the best idea to go to a pub and wait it out till its all over. But, since the Winchester isn't in Bundaberg. Lets just chill at the Bundy Tavern or something.

Fool proof.

Day Update thing.

I honestly hope this all works out and doesn't back fire or destroy me in some matter.
Though I am quite happy with what has happened. Don't care what other people think, if you think it's stupid etc then blah to you..

Oh, on a note. We no longer have a kitchen. We destroyed it. We are building a new one, but currently there isn't one what so ever... Over the next two months we will slowly put in our new kitchen. Which kinda makes cooking hard because there is no where to cook anything currently and all our plates and containers are all packed in boxes which you have to search though to find what your after.

Seems my guitar only likes me playing Killing In The Name Of. If I try play anything else my guitar cuts out and doesn't work on amp properly. Which annoys me.

Dinosaur.

RAWR!

Thats right. I love you guys ;)

Happy day thing?

I've been quite happy today and I am really not sure why. I don't want to think about it but I kinda do at the same time. I want to know what made me so damn happy today.

Anyhow, we watched these cool videos in drama today. I'm rather liking this term of drama. Theatre of the Absurd really is the best style there really is. Its great!
Lots of pointless things all for fun!

Tomorrow I'm going to sing at awards night. Its going to be so boring! But I went to the first two practice things so Im stuck in it and have to turn up tomorrow But I have no idea about it so.. Yeah.

Anyhow, short blog and pointless I guess but yeah.

Bye.

Are you know, or have you ever?

I feel it,
Do you feel it?

I'm picturing it,
Are you picturing it?

I've considered it,
Have you considered it?

I've thought it,
Do you think it?

Are you know, or have you ever?

It's just a matter by you looking at it, that's all...

Smile.

Postish thing.

Hello there.

As of yesterday I have found myself addicted to Fallout : New Vegas. Its quite the addictive game. Just running around, shooting things and throwing dinomite. Its great. Though its annoying as hell that the cool looking guns are weaker then your pistols. Just made the NRC rule Primm. This run though I'll side with them.

Anyhow, I have been doing my assignment today. I was stuck for like 2 hours or maybe 3 just wondering how to rewrite my first scene into a script version. I'm still not sure, because the first scene is purely stage directions except for when she screams out with the music, which I guess isn't her actually speaking a line, its more a stage direction as well is it not? I'm stuck on this and its due tomorrow. Yay...

Stupidest moment this weekend, Was playing halo and Julian was running at me. I throw a bubble shield and I'm like yeah bitch. Then I lost him, found him again, throw a grenade. Forgot I was in a bubble shield.

Fail.

School tomorrow, I'm kinda excited. Also, Home alone for the next how ever long. Because family is going to Brisbane. :D

Suicidal thoughts

So, For the last hour, I have been thinking of ways to murder myself.

Sometimes I just feel like doing this.

These thoughts plague my mind, but won't be done.

Its tempting though, I seem to cause people to many problems.

If I wasn't there, the problems wouldn't exist.

Failing school.

I'm passing two classes, out of 6.

Does that make me feel pathetic?

Yes It does.

Iron - WOODKID

Deep in the ocean, dead and cast away
Where innocence is burned, in flames
A million mile from home, I'm walking ahead
I'm frozen to the bones, I am...

A soldier on my own, I don't know the way
I'm riding up the heights of shame
I'm waiting for the call, the hand on the chest
I'm ready for the fight, and fate

The sound of iron shots is stuck in my head,
The thunder of the drums dictates
The rhythm of the falls, the number of deaths
The rising of the horns, ahead

From the dawn of time to the end of days
I will have to run, away
I want to feel the pain and the bitter taste
Of the blood on my lips, again

This steady burst of snow is burning my hands,
I'm frozen to the bones, I am
A million mile from home, I'm walking away
I can't remind your eyes, your face

Life blog thing.

Lets all forget life and go get high.

Sounds perfect doesn't it?

Would be nice to escape my life. I wouldn't mind just getting up and leaving it behind.

I will in a few years, everything that is hear will mean nothing and I'll go somewhere else and start a new, or not everything, some friends I want to keep along, but else just go and leave the rest.

Less then two years and I'll be moving out of home.
Less then two years and I hope to be starting a new life.

Do you actually feel the same?

That day where you made me sit there, in your room, by myself.

It was a good day, not the sitting by myself and reading a book, but before all that and after it too of course.

Do you remember it?

Do your feelings and thoughts still flow like they once did?

I'm curious.

My Dear Girl.

You shine in my sky.
Like the moon in fact.
On a starless night, you shine so bright.

Yes you,
Why wouldn't it not be?
Why it is only but a possibly full truth.

I would not exist,
In this current abyss.

If it weren't for my deep and dark desire for you.

Have my heart, Take it.

Cake

My last blog, Its a lie.

My last blog is a cake.

Sorry.

You.

I've given up.

Just to let you know.

My efforts are pointless, and I won't be bothering to try anymore.

Cousins 45th Birthday

PARTY!!!

Having my cousins 45th birthday, and currently hosting a party at our house. Music is going off like crazy!

Drinking creaming soda currently, Waiting to get the good ol' Jim Beam out and the coke, It shall be great.

Currently dinner is being cooked, a BBQ, good old aussie style.
Later to have a Massive Bon Fire.

Anyhow, Just a short blog, Wanted to sum up my night and what it'll be like and such.

A little bitch.

Here is a little bitch of mine...

I'm sick of everyone telling me I'm not going to get far in life or just talking behind my back, it pisses me off especially when Its people I consider good friends and you find out from someone else.

It annoys me so damn much and I just get boiled over in angry but I don't do say or do anything to the people that said shit because I'm not a dick and I don't like being mean. But it majorly pisses me off.

I honestly don't care how I am doing in school, I have all next year to pick it up.
And I honestly don't care what you people say about me but it just pisses me off when I hear it from other people. I would like to hear it straight up from the people who think it.

I hate people telling me what to do all the time, I can as I wish, I don't have to be pushed around and told what to do. I'll live how I want to live and do as I please.

I hate being judged and I hate being talked about behind my back from friends.

Thanks to those who are actually good friends.
Rest of you, grr.

Smile.

"Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall. Because there is always someone cooler then you." - Ben Folds

This song is great, this guy is amazing. His songs are just pure awesome. I do love a good song or two by Ben Folds.

Anyhow, this particular song makes me think.
I know I'm not the best at stuff. But when I see someone better then me at something when its the best I can do, this puts me down, but I think back to this song and smile and carry on.

I carry on and act cheerful, there is no point thinking you will not do well and be sad or depressed. But you have to continue, don't give up.

Just smile like you have nothing to prove.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxkM_cnjFfw

Truth To Part.

Oh Master of Colour, After Lord of Rain, Bringer of Joy and Gold.

Can you guess as to what I speak? Aye, I speak of the Rainbow.

Yes, the wonderful rainbow. I've always wondered, how does one find the beginning of the rainbow? Must one detach themselves from reality and enter a state of mind that separates ones body and spirit? Or does one just happen to just stumble upon it by nothing but pure luck.

You say it doesn't exist and its just a myth?
Everything is true to part, everything exists in some matter of telling.
But how does one define truth from text?

I shall in my life, Find the secret that is hidden to us but also right in front of us.

To do this my young followers, shall need a crossbow, an hourglass, three goats, one of us must learn to play the trumpet, whilst the other one goes like this. -waves his fingers-

Blog Blog Blog.

Oh Hey.

So, I have this assignment that was due today, but now due tomorrow. I have no data because I was away last term for more then half of it and missed all the pracs we did but like 2? So I'm about to be failing chem.

Not long till school ends, yet again, I probably won't be at school much. This has to change next year, Ill need to go and actually learn and pay attention in the classes. I really need to start picking my schooling up. Its either I get badly sick and miss a week or two or mother needs me to stay home to help her do stuff around the house or such. While I don't mind doing so, I need to actually put more time in for school.

This is going to be nerdy. But I got my Paladin to level 85 today, and geared for raids. So that makes 3 level 85's. A Death Knight, Hunter and now my Paladin. I'm actually quite happy about that but it is incredibly nerdy.

So, I have this, well... Want? to learn to draw better but I seem to only draw things appear in dreams and burn deeply into my memory. Its a shame because my creative mind thinks of lots of things but I am unable to draw them but what I dream of I have no trouble.


And well, I ran out of things to say currently my fellow followers. I do wish to make my next blog more interesting for you.

Gregs Trip.

Once upon a time there was a frog, His name was Greg. Greg was your normal frog. Croaks, hops and eats random bugs. He lived the life of relaxation. Never did anything ever go wrong this his life. He lived in room 403, in the Great Elder Tree. One day he decided to go to the swamp. Every frog knows you find the biggest bugs to eat in the swamp. So away he hopped from his tiny little home. On his journey he came across a May fly, He said "Hello, how do you do?" The May fly replied "Splendid, how 'bout you?" Greg gave a laugh and said with Glee "Ho ho ho, I'm great! I just found morning tea" And out came his tongue as quick as can be, Snatched the May fly up and eat him merrily. Off He went once again, to the great swamp land. He bounced with joy as he knew he was almost there. Oh how fun it will be, to eat all you can see. He arrived at last and wondered how sad it would be, for one of these bugs if they had family. He laughed at the thought as he ate his next one. Nom nom nom, on all he could see, "What a great life it is to be me". After his feed he started to head home. He was as happy as can be, why nothing ever went bad for Gregory. He arrived home, after his long day out, sat around and lazed about. For his name was Greg, and was as happy as can be. He is just your normal frog and that, is the end of the story.

To my fellow sheep.

So, Ive fallen in love with WOODKID's Music. Its just amazing. Heres a link to one of his songs, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vSkb0kDacjs&feature=relmfu , The song is Called Iron. Good song. Though, My heart still belongs to UNKLE.

Anyhow, I've been trying to draw all day but everything I have draw just looks like crap. I can't draw at all today and yet its all I have wanted to do all day. Its a shame. Though I did draw a sword in a rock, I thought it looked okayish so I didn't destroy it with fire. Though, its far from being good.

I have found I am one of the most laziest people I know, I thought some people where lazy but I seem to go beyond them. Though, As lazy as I am, I still manage to be skinny and survive.

Oh oh oh! I figured out what I'm doing for my drama assignment. So far I have mixed two songs together and it sounds so terrible its great! Throw some flashing lights on to blind the audience and it will work perfectly. My theme thingy magigi is "Rape, Just don't." - Thanks to Tyler who actually gave me a way to word it.

Gimme a drink a water, I'm gonna sing around the collar and I don't need a microphone!
-Breaks out into a dance-

Wow, That was fun. Should all come join me.

If not, then shame on you. Till next time my sheep.

Happy Birthday Phoenix!

Happy Birthday to Phoenix Brown!

I kinda feel bad because I didn't have time or the money till yesterday to buy her a present but I will next time I go into town to the correct shops. Then Mail it to her so it takes even longer to get to her :D No, I wont do that... Thats mean.

I hung with her today, walked from Tyler and Aden's house to meet at hers, we just lazed around and talk and such, was fun.

Anyhow, we went out to buy her a cake. She had this delicious looking cake, Cheese cake, was mint flavoured apparently. I didn't get any of it which is unfortunate. But it looked amazing.

Anyhow, I hope you had enjoyed the beach after you took me home and Enjoyed your day.

I wish you a Very Merry Birthday and a Happy New Year to come.
It fits, we will leave it at that.

Oh Hey! :D

Oh Hey!

So I have been requested to right a blog, Or well not requested I was told to write more. And to do so "now". Which was thirty something mins ago but I was to lazy to get off my bed to look at my comp back then.

Anyhow, Its a lovely day today, Nice and quite and its just a beautiful day outside.

I've Started playing WoW again after such a long break, Everything is different but its fun and the story lines have all changed since the cataclysm that occurred.

I want to get out of the house more and go hang and see people, but everyone seems to be busy. Its a shame, I don't like sitting at home doing nothing. And Amelia happens to be in Brisbane, most of my friends actually seem to be there currently or just not in Bundaberg... Bundaberg, stop pushing people away, lower your bogan power level...

I have also seemed to become addicted to Pepsi... There are like, let me count... 14 cans that are empty sitting around me, well 13 because I'm currently drinking the 14th. And I'm still skinny :D Oh I do love my metabolism.

I am craving jelly, I want it so badly! With ice cream, Everything goes good with ice cream.


Anyhow, This blog didn't say much. Then again, none ever do.

You remind me of the babe.

You remind me of the babe.
What babe?
The babe with the power.
What Power?
The power of Voo-Doo
Who do?
You do.
Do what?
Remind me of the babe.

Short Story about love

There was this guy, He liked this girl ever so much. He commonly told her and sometimes felt like she felt the same way for him, but sometimes he just didn't know, he never did ask in case he found out something he didn't want to hear. He would tell her anything on his mind and wouldn't stop to think about what was going to be said. He felt like he was alone without hearing from this girl or seeing her. These two started to form a bond. He longed for the day to see this bond grow. Though, there was one problem. The boy was over looked by a witch, ruled even. The witch wanted the boy and girl apart, she tried everything in her power and conjured up a force spell to keep the two a physical distance apart. the boy tried to accept the witch's wishes to keep them apart but it was tearing him up inside. The boy just couldn't take this no longer, He wanted this girl. He one day summed up his courage and decided to take the witch on and be free from her evil ways. He tried and failed numerous times and was about to give up when the girl told him everything will be okay and he could do it, He could break free from the Witch's grasp. With this here by found confidence he gained from the girls words he tried it one last time. It worked, He was free, the witch defeated and out of his life. He could go on and continue his story with this girl.

Poems

My emotions for you:

My emotions for you,
Might just be true.
I want to show,
I know its so.
Don't know how to say,
That I think of you every day.
I wish to find,
That your on my mind.
I miss your voice,
And this makes it choice.
I want to see,
You destroy my pain and misery.



Girl of my dreams:

I hear a sound,
What better to be found.
Then the girl of my dreams,
Looking all sexy and gleam.
I turn to her,
At the speed of a blur.
As cute as can be,
I want her for me.
I ask for a dance,
We fall into a trance.
Happy as can be,
Forever you'll see.

Guys and Dolls!

Guys and Dolls starts tomorrow. Its Members night.

It will be quite fun to see how we do tomorrow night. Hopefully people enjoy it and we are awesome. I myself am actually rather quite excited over this. I really cant wait!

Going to get there early to practice the dance with Hollie that we commonly screw up. We will have it mastered by 6pm tomorrow!

All the guys in suits, looking pre damn sexy up on that stage.

Anyhow, If you haven't got yourself a ticket go out and get one!
Thursday, Friday, Saturday afternoon and then night.

Come and see us! We are amazing.

Cant live off music

In love - Ben Folds
Its true That We Love One Another - White Stripes.

I'm currently addicted to both these songs.

They seem to keep me from being overly happy and stop me from falling to shreds.
Its nice. But I cant live off them.

I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself

I just don't know what to do with myself
I don't know what to do with myself
planning everything for two
doing everything with you
and now that we're through
I just don't know what to do

I just don't know what to do with myself
I don't know what to do with myself
movies only make me sad
parties make me feel as bad
cause I'm not with you
I just don't know what to do

like a summer rose
needs the sun and rain
I need your sweet love
to beat love away

well I don't know what to do with myself
just don't know what to do with myself
planning everything for two
doing everything with you
and now that we're through
I just don't know what to do

like a summer rose
needs the sun and rain
I need your sweet love
to beat love away

I just don't know what to do with myself
just don't know what to do with myself
just don't know what to do with myself
I don't know what to do with myself

Strange..?

Posted a blog I didn't even know that I wrote. Strange.

Fuck.

Fucking sick of all this rule shit.

I pre sure I can choose to do stuff for myself.
I don't think I need permission from everyone to do something that would help myself out in the long run.

Sick of everyone who keeps telling me I cant do something or I'm not allowed for some stupid reason.

...

Fuck.

Post

So Ive been sick for the last week. Massive headaches and such since around Friday morning. Ive been at home laying in bed practicing my drama script. Not all the exciting.

Theatre, Guys and Dolls, Its amazing. I actually am quite excited about the release. We will blow peoples minds. All the guys get to wear suits and it just looks pretty damn awesome. I'm a Bartender, I think that's pre damn awesome. The stuff I get to do is fun.

Anyhow, You should all come see it. Everyone. Its 15 dollars. Just go to playhouse theatre website and buy your tickets. They are selling pretty quickly.

And someone should make me soup and bring me it. I would be forever greatful.

My Music Taste.

Brick - Ben Folds
Red Flag - Billy Talent
Just Older - Bon Jovi
Daria - CAKE
Friends - Flight of the Conchords
Here[In My Arms] - Hellogoodbye
No Bravery - James Blunt
Are You Gonna Be My Girl - Jet
Jamie All Over - Mayday Parade
Nothing Else Matters - Metallica
Killing In the Name Of - Rage Against The Machine
Your Guardian Angel - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Saviour - Rise Against
Your Call - Secondhand Serenade
Those Nights - Skillet
Rock 'n' Roll - Skrillex
Lonely day - System of a Down
Burn My Shadow - UNKLE
Blue Orchid - White Stripes
Apple Tree - Wolf Mother


20 Songs from my 20 Favourite bands.
Don't know the song?
I suggest listening to them then.

Wanting the path of insanity back...

How does one lose himself and walk back into the path of insanity but still stay quite absolute. You know, I do miss being insane. I wish to obtain this aspect back in my life. But only that, None of the rest of the oldness.

Maybe I should just turn into a caterpillar and just smoke weed for the rest of my life and everything will be fly.

Mother Nature! Or.. The Great Book of spells! I require your assistance! We must change my form and give me Farmer Smurf so he can grow me a constant supply of weed.

If Gargamel attempts to come anywhere near my Smurf servant then.. I SHALL BRING THE THUNDER.

Then I will have no worries left in the world and I shall be forever wise as I sit upon my mushroom.

:)

In love.

I remember
The night we met
That night we sat
Entwined
Under summer skies
I looked into your eyes
You looked into mine
You said "you're not like the rest"
And I nodded
"No one understands me"
you said
And I nodded once again,
As if to agree that all men are indeed the same
Somehow, you said, I was different

For months on end I maintained
A veneer of sincere interest
As if I were listening
As you re-lived every page
Of self help and new age that you had read
And
I went in for the kill
I'd read the same books
I learned to ape the motions of a 'sensitive' human being
And we were 'oh so happy'
But you found things to fix
And I knew it was time
To move on

So now you have me completely figured out
You feel sorry for me
I can't express my feelings
I can't tell the truth
We are all alike
At puberty I was sworn to secrecy
By the international brotherhood
Of lying fickle males
I can't tell you anything
And
I can't commit
You're right
I can't commit... to you

I will always cherish our time together
I don't feel enough of anything
To harbor the kind of distain that you'll maintain
You painted me into what you wanted to see
And that's fine
But you will never know me....



- Ben folds

For the Path

There he goes, In this land of pain and misery, Falling from the path he was only just walking to and slowly get dragged away. The boy was merely just trying to find his way home in the forest, did he expect to be dragged away? Why take one foot off the path and you might never be seen again. For this path is a mysterious one, be careful of where you choose to stand, for you might just slip and fall into never never land.

Just a post.

I completely forgot about my blog, and well decided to actually make a post. Ive been reading peoples but just havent had the effort to sign in and comment or to actually make my own post since my last post in may.

Holidays now, exams were actually fairly easy though I got stuck on a C level question when I did the A's with ease. Shame.

I hope these holidays turn out to be fun.

Thats all. You can carry on with what ever you's were doing before reading this.

Fail

Spent my whole day doing my assignment and passed up going to woodgate to fish like Ive really wanted to do for ages...

Turns out what I did all day on my assignment was wrong...
I majorly do suck at this type of thing.

Makes me want to just quit and drop school because I already feel like a failure and a drop kick and I have trouble with english and anything related too it <.<

Distracted D=

So its May. Yay.

Birthday is soon, 29th of may for those who don't know.
Though I expect everyone who actually reads my blogs too.

My birthday, I have nothing big planned. Just going to relax for the day I guess.
I don't really know what I want for my birthday. Im really not to sure.

16...
I could ask for like money so I can try for my learners and pay for my license and such?

Anyhow.
The reason I'm writing this blog is because I am unable to focus on my drama assignment which has a draft due tomorrow. I honestly don't know to much about what I should be doing for it. But I do get the general idea because of the last one we did. I have thoughts going though my mind and they seem to be distracting me and I haven't quite found a way to block them out. They have been in my head since around Thursday last week and just haven't seemed to leave since then.

Its a pain.
They aren't all the same though but more as though it jumps to different thoughts that have nothing what so ever to do with the last thought. I don't seem to be able to control this and it is really starting to annoy me because of the fact that I cant concentrate on anything what so ever.


Anyhow,

Just another ramble session with not much meaning to it at all.
Hopefully I can get back into the mood with writing blogs that do actually have a meaning to them.


Josh

Depression, Its breaking me.

I'm kinda depressed.

I miss Phoenix heaps and I really wish I could just have her in my arms to forget about everything on my mind and just focus on her.

I don't know, I honestly don't.
I feel like, Just giving up. Walking out on life, Sick of who I was and what I did.

I haven't been the best Boyfriend in the world.
I haven't been the best Person in the world.
I'm just one of those trashy people.
One of those ones that don't deserve to be happy.

I know its true, Look at what I've done and shit to people, I used to play with peoples minds just for fun.
Look at what I have done, Ive ruined peoples feelings and emotions and their lives just for a bit of fun on my own part.

Including Phoenix's.
I never wish I did any of it to her. She doesn't deserve it.
I want to make it up to her but I know it wont ever happen.
I don't feel worthy enough or good enough for her.

I keep going on by life and I've taken none of the consequences it always falls on the other people, they get all the big problems from it and such and I walk away with nothing.

The only feeling I get from it all recently from the stuff in the last few months or well year or so is depression and angry, Normally I can control it but lately Its out of hand because its all built up and I regret hurting Phoenix so much and I know she wont forgive me and will always hate me somewhere in her because of it.


For the last few months I've just felt like shit, It was my fault and all for everything that occurred and I honestly just wish to forget it. But no matter what I do it always comes back to me, the memory's and seeing what I did to Phoenix. It keeps showing me how much I don't deserve happiness, how much I screwed up. I care so much for Phoenix. And look, I messed up, Big time.

Its haunting me and making me angry or depressed/sad and the way I take it out is by bashing the crap out of my punching bag until I can no longer move or breathe properly and my hands are swollen and bright red.
It doesn't go away, Its always there. Always ruining my good moods, plaguing my dreams. I just want it to stop, Its breaking me. I just want to let go of everything and fade off into the darkness where I cant hurt anyone.

I know I cant expect forgiveness or any shit like that, but I want it to stop. I want this depression and angry that keeps boiling up inside me to just go away.

I want to be good enough for Phoenix, I want her to be happy.
I don't want to hurt her, I wish we could move past this properly and for her to forgive me so I know she truly cares and does love me back.

But that's just being selfish.
Yet again, Another selfish thought.

Who would have guessed.

I just want it to stop, I want her to be happy with me.
I want to know the person I love and care for with every inch in my body and soul, Will forgive me and that she loves me.

Why am I such a screw up...

As It Grows Darker - Improved version.

I see them, where they sit, where they act so happy. Just a few kids, at school, sitting around talking and making jokes and laughing at one another. I see me, sitting as a kid, I’m not alone I’m with the kids, who all continue to laugh in this long forgotten place. I'm sitting in a tree watching myself play. He looks up and is smiling, to them I am nothing, I do not exist I am but a mere shadow. I look into his eyes I don't see truth what I see is a lie. The world is starting to grow darker thunder is heard. The kids get up and run to their mothers which should not be there during the school hour, no maybe I have it wrong, maybe this is after school. No, it doesn’t matter, Time makes no difference. Only what is yet to occur. I continue to watch as it yet grows darker and darker. Clouds have taken over the sky, lightning and thunder are starting to dancing around for they are free and mock these young people. The parents grin, their eyes widen. They start to change, finger nails grow longer, and their arms turn into a rough purple red colour scale likish, they grow horns and wings, their faces extend and become narrow and they turn into demons. They laugh as they hold the kids like they are nothing to them, only food, all they want from the kids are their souls, Delicious souls to eat, oh how the demons will enjoy their little treat. There is fire, the buildings are burning I see the kids starting to scream the world is falling into chaos they are screaming for help, yet it is futile, they will soon be dead, all their screaming for nothing, they wasted their chance, if they were smart they should have tried to escaped, but no. Soon to be nothing but without a soul, Soon to be nothing but a lifeless body. I just sit there, in my tree, watching kids be slaughtered by demons, that are coming out of no-where. They sky begins to fill with them, death following them where ever they go, this land is only to lose its happiness today. I watch as the demon who once appeared to be my mother, swing her tail she did and plunged it right though my heart, she drops licks the blood off her tail and lets the boy fall to the floor. I look into my eyes again, I recognize the pain and the sadness he has in his eyes now. Now I see how the world feels, happiness has gone. Nothing but darkness and death surrounding us all. “We live to die.” I whisper to myself as I watch from the tree. He falls to the ground, lays there bleeding. He looks up at me one last time before his departure. The young boy holds out his hand and says with his last breath. “Help me” and now becomes a nothing but a corpse. I sat and watched as he bled to death on the ground, as he cried for help for someone to save him. Yet there is no hero of this tale, so alone and to be forgotten he must die. As he drew his last breath I jump out of the tree and walk away into the darkness smiling as I fade away. What is yet to come to this world? What else is yet to occur? Will others lose their lives or will they somehow find hope, find one small shard of light in this world that beings to be swallowed by darkness, one shard of light to save this world from the corruption and evil that is spreading about it.

The lost bracelet, Found. >:D

It was found, The long lost bracelet my Beautiful Girlfriend gave me as a Christmas Present, along with it she gave me an awesome Guitar Clock, Which is megaly awesome.

I know wear the bracelet on me to feel as though she is with me all the time which is such a good feeling to have, Warms my heart every time.

I lost this bracelet one night and after around two months I finally got it back. I was ever so happy, I now have back one of my most cherished objects from her. I can wear it or look at it when ever I want to and think, This present right here, This present is from the most Amazingly, Wonderfully, Beautifully, Awesomely and the most precious girl in my entire existence, Phoenix Brown.

I'm thankful to the people who helped find it and such and gave it back to me.
Thank you heaps. I'm Really grateful to you.

Never will I lose it again. Ever.

I, Love, You.

I wish there was someway, something I could do to make it all up to you.

Phoenix, Im sorry for everything.
I Truly am, I love you with all my heart and soul.

I miss you terribly.

I wish you know how much I cared about you.

Phoenix, I love you!

So Ive been dating this Amazing girl for the last 16 months. We have had some ups and downs and I have to admit I am the cause of all the downs.

I have screwed up a lot in this relationship and I'm glad even though I did she has stuck with me and stayed though all the bullshit that went on.

Phoenix Brown, I love you. Since 19/10/2009 and to continue into the future.

She is really Gorgeous, Beautiful, Sexy, Amazing, Cute and Smart.
She truly is an Angel in disguise.
She is the best.

I'm glad she is in my life and has helped me with quite a lot.
She is there for me when I need her, and She supports me. I like that.

Phoenix on Valentines cooked me the best tasting muffins I have ever had, Though she did get banned from the kitchen afterwards haha :D
I made her a card, Well drew a picture of me and her kissing inside a love heart with a message on the back. It took me forever to get the picture right.

She has made me so many cute and nice things and they all decorate my room.
She Really is Amazing.

I love being able to text you every day.
Just hearing from you makes my day.

Phoenix, I miss you terribly. I wish I could see you every day, that would truly be amazing.


I Love Phoenix Brown, Forever and always <3

Truth Came Out.

I love her, I do.
I don't want to hurt her, Its true.
I want you to be happy, I want to be too.

I lied, I cried.
I tried to hide.
Nothing helped, All the truth came out.

It wont happen again.
Ever at all.
I want it to work.
Please accept this.
Please accept it all, Don't let us fall.


Phoenix, I love you.
I'm sorry for everything, This wont change a thing.
But I just wanted to post it so everyone else can see.

Computer Fix >:)

Fix my computer. Finally, I missed her so much.

Now she and I are back up and running together.

Love live my computer <3

That is all.

Another two years....

So I have two years left of school, I go back tuesday.
Not really looking forward to it, I think school this year will really suck because I dont think many people I like will be in my classes.

I choose:
Math B,
English,
Chemistry,
Biology,
Hpe,
Drama.

Well, I honestly have no idea why I choose them anymore. I just dont really feel like doing them. I dont know where to go with my life once I've finished school, but then who does? A few people you say? Guess I'm not one.

It doesnt fase me that I might be a drop kick once I leave school cuz I got shit marks or a low OP, I want to go to uni and all but really if I screw up anytime this year or the next then I lose my chance.

Anyhow,
Anyone know if they are doing any of them and might be in my class?
I doubt it but one of you might be.

Is it possible to drop a subject so I only have 5 OP subjects and no more then that?
Just curious cuz I know I wont be able to do all the work with 6 OP subjects...


Back to school, yay...

She said they were true..

Im not to sure about anything right now,
Im hell confused to the core. :(

Im not trying to make this rhyme, Its just how it was said in my mind.

I dont know, I read back over stuff and its made me feel like shit.
She said it was true and as I read over it I believe it and makes me feel like crap.
I'm meant to be happy and live life to the fullest,
Am I realing doing that? Im not to sure, Everything good comes with its downs.

I made a choice, I should stick with it?
Go with it? Try for it?

-sigh-

I dont know.

I feel like shit,
Even when I'm meant to be happy.

Happy New Year.

Happy New Year.

Its kinda late but atleast its still the first.


Anyhow,
I once wrote a poem because I was depressed. Its rather lame but I wished to place it in my blog.

Once again, I have another depressing blog?
Its not really but I just want to place this poem here.
If you can even call it that.


Falling Ever So Slowly:
A Rose with its petals so delicate,
Falling ever so slowly,
As it was tossed over a waterfall,
During a cloudy but beautiful sunset,
That was slowly fading away to the darkness.


I was 14 when I wrote this.
I actually think it is okay, Its lame but the feeling of it is what gets me..
Maybe because I wrote it? Not to sure.
Its meaning? Try figure it out...


I have wrote a few loveish poems and posted them into my blogs before,
They were rather good in my opinion. Not to sure if others liked them but I sure did.

I want to write some more and I will try too every now and then.



I love her,
I know I do.
I look at her,
But does she know its true.

I want to ask her,
I wish she knew.
I need to tell her,
But what good will it do.

I feel for her,
I deem it true.
I dream of her,
But where will this all lead too.


So those are just two poems, Rather lame ones but I feel for them both.


New Year,
I hope this year rolls smoothly.

Hope you all Enjoy your new year.

2011..

L plate in 5 months, Awesome.

:D


Josh.